once in a while

Once in a while I get the feeling that I ought to be having more fun. I think being a pastor makes me feel hyper-responsible--like I can't do anything that might even be construed as frivolous. Of course, I totally resent that I've let myself fall prey to the old fashioned notions of what a pastor ought to conform to. I really never wanted to do that. I've tried not to. I'm sure some of what I do in worship pushes the envelope for the Blue Hairs but it's still pretty damn traditional.
But then again, I value my job security. Whacha gonna do?

Is it July already?

Calendar says so, but geez, it's gone by fast. I think that has to do with the kiddo getting out of school so late this year (June 17th!!) So summer seems to be going by in a hurry.

P took the kids to see his fam this weekend so I am here in blessed peace and quiet. I love it! I also got my sermon done early today (cue angelic "miracle" theme music) and have been completely at loose ends. I have no idea what to do with free time since I so rarely get any!

Otherwise, you can see my other bloggletts to know what I've been up to.

So that didn't go as planned

I guess I sorta forgot about my pledge to write more. I suppose that having to write a sermon every week cures any desire to write other things.

It's summer again, and for a revgal that means a bit of relief. No special holy days, etc. I can breathe (just a bit) easier.

It also means I get a half-bushel of fresh veggies every friday for the next several weeks. I'm pretty sure I still have a freezer full of last years, so I guess some homemade spaghetti sauce will be in my future soon. I can't think of a better way to use up all those frozen tomatoes!

We had barf-pocalypse this past week here. And this weekend, P was gone, so I got to handle all the puke by myself. (Usually, I do poop, P does vomit--that's just our deal) Anyway, it seems to be just a 24 hour bug, so I am hoping it's all over and that P and I are passed by.

Otherwise, I am taking it a day at a time. I don't live an exciting life, sadly.

writing it down

I have a hard time blogging. It just plain feels narcissistic to me. Why the hell would anyone be interested in what I have to say? Most of the time, even I'm not interested in what I have to say. Why indeed. But I realize that I do enjoy reading a few other people's blogs, and though I consider them to be wiser and more worldly than I, I would never think of them as narcissistic.
So, maybe I try a little harder to write here now. I do try to keep my most churchy, theologically slanted things separate, but since that's pretty much my life... Well, overflow is to be expected.
But this is my commitment in writing to get more stuff down in print. Interesting or not.

My first star

Even after only two weeks, I've gotten my first WW star for losing 5 lbs. Awesome! Just a few more til 5%. There is no better motivator than seeing the weight come off. Admittedly, I get a few extra points for breastfeeding, which makes it easier to live with, but there have been several days when, even not being all that careful, I haven't eaten all my points. I haven't let myself feel hungry either. Over on RevGal Cooks, I posted a healthy, filling summer recipe that is only 3 points per generous serving!
Me, I'm a snackaholic. That's my downfall. If I can eat a lighter supper that will let me have a bigger snack around 3 or 4 pm, I'm a happy girl.

and baby makes four

Well, now that there are four of us, life is indeed more hectic than ever. I'm back to work now, since the beginning of June and having M with me is not the easiest of conditions, but I don't think I'd trade it at all. I love that she's still with me. I can still nurse her as needed and, the main reason, we aren't paying for two kids in child care. Laura will enter kindergarten in the fall. We'll save up to pay for her summer care tuition during the year.
I'm also really glad that M will be here in this church while she's in childcare. We house the 0-2 year olds (or whenever they're potty trained) for the same program that L is in. She's just a block up the road at another church.
And of course, during the hottest week we've had so far this summer, the AC in the church--actually only in my zone--is broken. Go figure. The original office was divided in half to provide office space for the childcare director, but somehow this really screwed up the AC return system and my office is warm even when the AC works, but now it's fairly close to unbearable, especially in the afternoons when the sun hits my side of the building head on.
Got a fan for now, it's keeping it livable.

Hard to Imagine

It is always hard to imagine what life was like before the baby got here. No matter when the baby comes, no matter how many you've had, or not, before. It only takes a few weeks, or even days, for them to become a fully integrated part of life so that it seems like they've been there always...




...or maybe that's just my lack of sleep talking.